A SEARCH FOR HAPPINESS: "IF I HAD WHAT LINDON HAD I WOULD BE HAPPY". 

  

THIS REALLY DID HAPPEN, I WAS THERE.

THIS IS THE INSPIRATION FOR THE MUSIC VIDEO "I AM HE", SUNG BY TRIXIE'S PAPER MACHE' SIMULACRUM.

ANOTHER DITZKRIEG FRONT WAS OPENED. MY WIFE WOULD TAKE OVER EVERYTHING. "I WANT YOU ON THE STREET OR IN JAIL " SHE HISSED AT ME. 

MY MOTHER HAD ALWAYS BEEN AT WAR WITH ME IN A MANNER LIKE TO A COMBINATION OF HAMAS AND THE ISRAELI'S WITH A DASH OF REVEREND MOONISM. 

BETTY JOINED MOTHER'S "COLLARD FAMILY WOMEN'S CRIMINAL GANG".

A MIGHTY GANG WHICH TOOK LINDON'S PROPERTY MAKING HIM PAY THEM FOR IT AND THE GANG EXTORTED HIM AND THEY HAD STOLEN HIS LEGACY.

I HAD NOTHING TO GAIN BY ARGUING WITH MY WIFE

I COULD ONLY LOSE BY FIGHTING, ESPECIALLY SEXUALLY. 

WITHOUT MY TRANSGRESSING IN ANY WAY AND WHILE I WAS SPENDING EVERYTHING I HAD ON HOUSING AND CLOTHING HOUSEWARES FOR THE IMMINENT ARRIVAL OF MORE CHILDREN. I HAS WORKED FOR EIGHT MONTHS FINISHING THE FIRST HOUSE I EVER OWNED FOR THE FAMILY TO LIVE IN:

MY WIFE PREEMPTIVELY STOPPED COOKING, CLEANING AND HAVING SEX. 

IF IT WAS POSSIBLE I WOULD PLACATE MY WIFE BUT OFTEN THAT DID NOT WORK AS SHE COULD BE IMPLACABLE.

TODAY I WAS ACCUSED OF ALWAYS FIGHTING AND SCREAMING WITH MY EX- WIFE. I FIND THAT REALLY ANGUISHING. I TRIED SO HARD NOT TO HAVE A MARRIAGE LIKE THAT AND BESIDES EXACTLY WHAT COULD I GET OUT OF MY WIFE BY ARGUING. IF SEX IS ALREADY OFF THE TABLE WHAT COULD MY WIFE POSSIBLY HAVE FOR ME. SHE HAD NO EARNINGS AND HAD A JOB TO DO. SHE HAD CHILDREN AND SHE WOULD HAVE TO DO CHILDCARE. I HAD TO WORK AND EARN MONEY TO SUPPORT THE FAMILY.

THE STATISTICAL DATA INDICATES THAT ONE HALF OF MEN NOT IN A ROMANTIC OR MARRIED RELATIONSHIP HAVE NO FRIENDS.

IT IS MY CONTENTION THAT WOMEN CAUSED THIS TO HAPPEN BY HAMPERING AND ISOLATING AND DEMONIZING MEN. 

WHEN I HEADED OFF TO UNIVERSITY AT THE AGE OF SIXTEEN, MY MOTHER REFUSED TO PAY THE $75 PER YEAR MORE FOR THE HEAVILY SUBSIDIZED ROOM AND BOARD AT THE LORD BEAVERBROOK RESIDENCE FOR YOUNG MEN JUST OUT OF HIGH SCHOOL WITH SINGLE ROOMS, A SUPPORT STAFF AND SOCIAL ACTIVITIES FOR THE TEENAGE MEN. 

INSTEAD I WAS TO SHARE A ROOM WITH A 35 YEAR OLD TRINIDADIAN IN A SPARTAN AND UNSERVICED RESIDENCE FOR OLDER AND FOREIGN STUDENTS.

AT THE BEAVERBROOK, THERE WERE MEN OF MY OWN AGE TO MAKE THE FRIENDS AND CONTACTS FOR A LIFETIME WHICH ARE MADE AT UNIVERSITY.

SHORTLY AFTER I WAS MARRIED MY EX-WIFE PUT SUCH A BURDEN ONTO ME THAT I WAS UNABLE TO REMAIN IN CONTACT WITH THE MANY FRIENDS AND ASSOCIATES I HAS IN VANCOUVER BC.

AS MY EX-WIFE WAS DIVORCING ME 12 YEARS LATER SHE ACTUALLY RAN AROUND SAYING "CUT HIM OFF FROM HIS FRIENDS, LINDON NEEDS PEOPLE".

WITHOUT PROVOCATION OR MY DOING ANYTHING BUT WORKING TO SAVE OUR HOME, TRIXIE OR BETTY SAID "SIGN OVER ALL YOUR ASSETS OR I WILL SAY YOU ABUSED ME" AND "MY LAWYER HAS TAUGHT ME HOW TO USE THE POLICE".

I HARDLY EVER MADE IT TO VANCOUVER TO PURSUE MY ART WRITING AND MUSIC  AND BUSINESS AFTER THAT. THE LOCAL POLICE, THE SOOKE RCMP, STARTED BY INFORMING VANCOUVER AND VICTORIA POLICE TO "FIND ANYTHING TO CHARGE ME WITH AND TO APPREHEND ME". 

THEN WHEN I WAS AWAY IN LONDON ENGLAND PURSUING MY MUSIC CAREER THE POLICE, BY-LAW AND SHERIFFS RIED TO SEIZE MY HOUSE "FOR MY EX-WIFE'S FUTURE SUPPORT". 

THE POLICE AND BY-LAW KEPT ON COMING FOR 25 YEARS, ABOUT SIXTY OR MORE TIMES. NO ONE EVER WANTED TO STAY HERE ALONE WITH ME GONE.

I BOUGHT THE ROCKCLIFFE IN 2001,  PLANNING TO HAVE A FREE SECONDARY RESIDENCE THERE, IN VICTORIA SO I COULD FIND FRIENDS AND EVEN COLLABORATORS FOR MY ART, WRITING AND MUSIC AND A GIRLFRIEND AS WELL.

THE ALF TOONE DIRECTORS WERE AT MY NEW HOME AWAY FROM HOME WITH THE VICTORIA POLICE RIGHT AWAY. THEY CALLED AUTHORITIES AGAIN AND AGAIN FOR SIXTEEN YEARS AND EVEN SENDING THEM OUT HERE TO OTTER POINT. I DID NOTHING BUT TRY TO TEND TO MY BUSINESS AND CONTINUE WITH MY ART WRITING, MUSIC, COMPOSING AND VISDEOGRAPHY. I BEGAN TO COLLAPSE WITHIN A FEW MONTHS OF OWNING THE ROCKCLIFFE WHEN I WENT THERE AND I CONTINUED TO COLLAPSE WHEN THE POLICE AND BY-LAW CAME TO OTTER POINT RESPONDING TO FAKE 911 CALLS.

ALL OF THIS HAMPERING WHICH STOPPED ME FROM HAVING ANY FRIENDS AND SOCIAL OR ARTISTIC CONNECTIONS WAS A CONTINUATION OF MY EX-WIFE'S CONSPIRACY WITH HER LAWYER TYLER LUCCIES AND THE SOOKE RCMP TO MAKE LIFE HERE SO HORRENDOUS THAT I WOULD LEAVE MY HOME HERE AT OTTER POINT, IT WOULD BE SOLD AND BETTY OR TRIXIE WOULD GET MORE OF MY MONEY.

I HAVE THE DISTINCT IMPRESSION THAT WE MEN ARE HELD RESPONSIBLE TO HAVE CAUSED OUR FRIENDLESSNESS, BUT IN MY CASE, WOMEN CAUSED THIS.

ANOTHER ASPECT OF THIS ISOLATION WAS THAT DURING RELATIONSHIPS MY MATES WOULD BEGIN TO BECOME COLD AND INSULAR AND TO HAVE NO MORE MEANINGFUL CONTACT WITH ME.

SOMEONE HAS MADE THIS INTO A COLD CRUEL ISOLATED WORLD FOR ME. I HAVE ABSOLUTELY NO FRIENDS THANKS TO A LIFETIME OF DITZKRIEG WAR AGAINST ANYTHING I WANTED TO DO OR NEEDED FOR MY PERSONAL AIMS TO BE ACHIEVED.

BEING STRESSED OUT IS BAD, SOME PRODUCTS OF THAT STRESS DO NOT EVER GO AWAY. THERE IS A WEARYING HYPER VIGILANCE AND AN UNWILLINGNESS TO TAKE ANY RISKS, OR TO BREAK ANY LAW OR EVEN TO APPEAR TO BE INFRACTING A REGULATION WHICH AFFLICTS ME AS A RESULT OF NUMEROUS RAIDS ON MYSELF ON MY OWN PROPERTY

 nearby.

ONE TOOL FITS ALL APPLICATIONS OF THEIR WILL.

June 06, 2023

EUREKA, I HAVE AN EMPIRICAL THOUGHT!

REGARDLESS OF WHAT THE COLLARD FAMILY WOMEN'S CRIMINAL GANG WANTED ME TO DO, THAT WOULD BE MANIPULATED THROUGH CREATING UNBEARABLE STRESS.

WITH THE EXCEPTION OF MY DAUGHTER REBECCA, MY GIRLFRIEND ANN AND MY AUNT ANNETTE NONE OF THE WOMEN I HAVE EVER MET IN MY LIFE HAD TRIED TO ACCOMPLISH ANYTHING BY WORKING AND SAVING TO FINANCE THEIR OWN ASPIRATION.

THE WOMEN WOULD CREATE STRESS, INVOKE INTERVENTION UNDER COLOR OF LAW AND DEFAME ME TO GET ME TO DO WHAT THEY WANTED ME TO DO.

ANOTHER EXCEPTION TO THE "NON WORKING" WOMEN WAS MY MOTHER IN LAW WHO MADE TAILORED WOMEN'S CLOTHING AND EVEN WEDDING DRESSES.

IN ANOTHER EXAMPLE OF HOW BADLY BEHAVED WOMEN ACTED, MY EX-WIFE REFUSED TO WEAR ANY CLOTHING MADE BY HER MOTHER.

I BECOME VIRTUALLY PARALYZED FROM STRESS BEING APPLIED TO ME TO FORCE ME TO COMPLY WITH THE WISHES OF MY HARASSERS, I COLLAPSE FROM WHAT MAY BE "STIFF PERSON SYNDROME". 

I JUST LEARNED ABOUT "STIFF PERSON", I RESEARCHED  A NUMBER OF ONLINE PAGES AND I DISCOVERED THAT THE SYMPTOMS AND THE TRIGGERING OF DECLINES MATCHED UP WITH WHAT I EXPERIENCED AND THE EPISODES I HAVE DOCUMENTED ON "DISABLED NOT COMPENSATED"@blogspot.

THE LIES AND THEFTS AND FAKE 911 CALLS, ALMOST ALL OF WHICH WERE PERPETRATED BY WOMEN, WOULD BE BAD ENOUGH IF THEY WERE PERPETRATED AGAINST AN ABLE BODIED PERSON. THEY DESTROYED ALL THAT I HAD FROM LIFE. DISABLED I CANNOT WORK HARD AND EFFECTIVELY

 

ONLY BY BEING ABLE TO RETAIN MY INHERITANCES WOULD I HAVE BEEN ABLE TO OFFSET THE FINANCIAL DEFICIT CREATED BY BEING DISABLED.

OR IS IT  SHELL SHOCK LIFE  ? 

DESPITE MY POVERTY I MANAGED TO HAVE A HOME NEAR VANCOUVER IN DELTA WHERE MANY PEOPLE COULD COME TO SOCIALIZE AND TO DISCUSS POLITICS AND ECONOMICS AND TO COMPOSE AND PRACTICE MUSIC WITH ME.

WHAT IS UNBELIEVABLY VICIOUS WAS THE PLAN TO DISRUPT THE LIFE I HAD CREATED FOR MYSELF.

MY EX WIFE DECLARED THE INTENT OF THE COLLARD FAMILY WOMAN'S CRIMINAL GANG: "YOUR WHOLE FAMILY IS IN AGREEMENT WE ARE TAKING YOU DOWN". 

REALLY STRANGE AND INSANE WAS THE DECLARATION MADE BY MY EX-WIFE IN REGARD TO THE SOCIAL SCENE WHICH I HAD CREATED WHICH ALLOWED ME EVEN THOUGH I WAS CRIPPLED TO HAVE CONTACT WITH NUMEROUS PERSONS.

"I HAVE TAKEN YOUR ROUND TABLE" SHE SAID "WE ARE GOING TO MAKE SURE THAT YOU DO NOT HAVE A ROUND TABLE AGAIN"

THIS WAS INSANE IN MANY WAYS. AS SOON AS I WAS EVICTED FROM THE BURR HOUSE THE ROUND TABLE WAS DONE IN.

THE "ROUND TABLE" HAD BEEN BURNT UP IN THE ARSON AT OTTER POINT IN 1980. THE TABLE SHE TOOK WAS JUST AN ORDINARY TABLE, A  ROUND OAK TABLE USED AS A DINING ROOM TABLE.

I NEVER THOUGHT THAT I WOULD HAVE ANOTHER "ROUND TABLE" HERE AT OTTER POINT. WHERE WOULD THE PARTICIPANTS COME FROM?

WHEN THEY BURNT THE HOUSE IN JUNE OF 1980 THE MAJORITY OF THE WORK TO MAKE THE HOUSE LIVABLE WAS DONE. I STILL HAD SOME WORK LEFT TO DO. AS SOON AS I WAS THROUGH, I WAS PREPARING TO GO TO VANCOUVER, AND I WAS PLANNING TO ATTEND AT THE "ROUND TABLES" OF OTHER PERSONS AND ORGANIZATIONS.

ALL OF THE ENVY AND JEALOUSY OF MYSELF WAS ABSURD. I NO LONGER HAD ANY SOCIAL SCENE, AND SOON I HAD NO SOCIAL NOR BUSINESS ASSOCIATES.

THIS WAS ALL I ACTUALLY HAD IN 1981. 

THE AREA IN THE PICTURE IS A SMALL PART OF THE LAND STRIPPED OF SOIL IN 1981 IN 2022. THIS WAS DONE ABOUT A YEAR AFTER THE ARSON, DURING THE TIME THAT I CONTRACTED OUT THE BUILDING OF THE REPLACEMENT HOME WHICH WAS TO BE BUILT IN A SPECIFIC LOCATION AND NO OTHER AREA WAS TO BE INFRINGED UPON.

I WAS NOT GOING ANYWHERE WITH A GIGANTIC MESS TO CLEANUP AND I HAD TO TRY TO REMEDY THE DAMAGE THAT HAD BEEN DONE. THAT WAS IMPOSSIBLE TO ACCOMPLISH I REALIZE NOW IN 2023. 

ONE TOOL FITS ALL APPLICATIONS OF THEIR WILL.

EUREKA, I HAVE AN EMPIRICAL THOUGHT!

REGARDLESS OF WHAT THE COLLARD FAMILY WOMEN'S CRIMINAL GANG WANTED ME TO DO, THAT WOULD BE MANIPULATED THROUGH CREATING UNBEARABLE STRESS.

WITH THE EXCEPTION OF MY DAUGHTER REBECCA, MY GIRLFRIEND ANN AND MY AUNT ANNETTE NONE OF THE WOMEN I HAVE EVER MET IN MY LIFE HAD TRIED TO ACCOMPLISH ANYTHING BY WORKING AND SAVING TO FINANCE THEIR OWN ASPIRATION.

THE WOMEN WOULD CREATE STRESS, INVOKE INTERVENTION UNDER COLOR OF LAW AND DEFAME ME TO GET ME TO DO WHAT THEY WANTED ME TO DO.

ANOTHER EXCEPTION TO THE "NON WORKING" WOMEN WAS MY MOTHER IN LAW WHO MADE TAILORED WOMEN'S CLOTHING AND EVEN WEDDING DRESSES.

IN ANOTHER EXAMPLE OF HOW BADLY BEHAVED WOMEN ACTED, MY EX-WIFE REFUSED TO WEAR ANY CLOTHING MADE BY HER MOTHER.

I BECOME VIRTUALLY PARALYZED FROM STRESS BEING APPLIED TO ME TO FORCE ME TO COMPLY WITH THE WISHES OF MY HARASSERS, I COLLAPSE FROM WHAT MAY BE "STIFF PERSON SYNDROME". 

I JUST LEARNED ABOUT "STIFF PERSON", I RESEARCHED  A NUMBER OF ONLINE PAGES AND I DISCOVERED THAT THE SYMPTOMS AND THE TRIGGERING OF DECLINES MATCHED UP WITH WHAT I EXPERIENCED AND THE EPISODES I HAVE DOCUMENTED ON "DISABLED NOT COMPENSATED"@blogspot.

I JUST DID THIS RESEARCH.

 

Monday, June 5, 2023

I THINK THAT I HAVE A NUMBER OF PHYSICAL NEUROLOGICAL LOCKUP, COLLAPSE AND CONVULSION SYMPTOMS.

THERE IS NO NEED TO PUT ONE NAME TO THE INJURY RELATED DISORDER I HAVE SUFFERED FROM TO VARYING DEGREES FOR MOST OF MY LIFETIME. 

THE LATEST CLUE I HAVE IS KNOWLEDGE OF THE "STIFF PERSON DISORDER".

I WILL RESEARCH THIS CONDITION.

What triggers stiff person syndrome?

The main symptoms of Stiff Person Syndrome are muscle stiffening in the torso and limbs, along with episodes of violent muscle spasms. These can be triggered by environmental stimuli (like loud noises) or emotional stress. The muscle spasms can be so severe that they cause the person to fall down.

 The legs are the most commonly impacted area for these spasms and often lead to falls. The abdominal area can also experience spasms, causing a person to feel fuller faster and lead to unintended weight loss.Dec 8, 2022

It is possible people who have less severe manifestations of stiff person syndrome have been overlooked or possibly misdiagnosed with muscle tension. As more doctors learn to screen people, especially people sent to orthopedic clinics, more people will get the help they need for the long term.

How do I know if I have stiff person syndrome?

Stiff person syndrome can be suggested by findings on electromyography testing (EMG). EMGs assess muscles and the nerves that control them. There are also blood and spinal fluid tests to find GAD antibodies typically found in the disease.

Symptoms of Stiff Person Syndrome

• Extreme muscle stiffness and rigidity
  • Most often in the head, neck, back, chest, and limbs
  • Less often, but severe, in the leg
• Extreme spasms

  • Triggered by stress, loud noises, and other environmental stimuli  ( EDITOR'S NOTE : THE COLLAPSES AND CONVULSIONS I EXPERIENCE ARE TRIGGERED IN THE AFTERMATH OF SERIOUS INJURY,BY MY BEING THREATENED, ASSAULTED, SURROUNDED, UNJUSTLY DISBELIEVED, OR SUBJECTED TO POLICE RAIDS.)

  • So severe the person can fall down in response
• Difficulty walking
• Anxiety and/or depression

Can stiff person syndrome be cured?

Not yet. Currently, the effects of immunotherapy on neurological syndromes associated with GAD antibodies are incomplete.

I THINK I HAVE MANY OF THESE SYMPTOMS.I HAVE POSTED ABOUT THESE SYMPTOMS AS ACCIDENT INJURY, TONIC IMMOBILITY, TONIC COLLAPSE AND EVEN SHELL SHOCK. I MIGHT HAVE MORE THAN ONE OF THESE MALADIES CAUSING MY VIRTUAL PARALYSIS AND SPASM ON THIS "DISABLED NOT COMPENSATED" blog @blogspot.